… Just a self love one, I guess. What a time to be alive, huh? It seems that now, even more than ever, we‘re struggling to find the essence in everything we do. I know I am. And even so, we spend sooooo many hours a day on things that, let‘s be honest, aren‘t relevant, not really. And every goal I achieve, I immediately replace with another one. Always seeking more, wanting more, setting the bar high, planing the next step, planing the future (although I am very well aware that it can not be planned).
Let me tell you, as a freelancer, I force my self to work ten times harder than I worked on a regular 9–5. And I am a workaholic, although I kind a hate that word, since it seems that is IN now. All that love what you do and you will never have to work a day in your life is such a bullshit, don‘t fool yourself. You will have to, even more. I always feel like I have to prove something, mostly to myself. Creativity must flow. Money as well. Sincerely, I often work from 9–1 A.M. And most days, I love it (and hate myself for it, because I do know that work isn‘t everything, and it shouldn‘t be).
And then, then I burn out. It happens every few months, I feel drained. My brain has too many tabs open. I feel like I can‘ t create anything else, like anything I ever created isn‘t worth it. Every creative knows the struggle. And this year, I‘m learning how to slow down, forcing myself to take a break from work, to leave the phone, not to answer on any messages and emails, not to post on 3 Instagram accounts I manage, not to take photos, not to tweet, turn the WiFi off, and read the book or take a walk, really talk with my friends, dance, not make an Insta story. And after a few days, I‘m back on track, batteries charged.
For God‘s sake, we live in such a time that we need the apps to remind us to breathe, meditate and be mindful, you know we fucked up something. I know that this is such a cliche, but I really think that I need to remind myself (and anyone reading, you know you need it too) from time to time, that I won‘t get a second chance on this life, and that most of us won‘t leave significant mark on the Earth after we leave, but that doesn‘t mean that we shouldn‘t enjoy the Sun.
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