I’ve been trying to be more present and less digitally oriented (really rich coming from a graphic designer, I know, but I believe that it is necessary to train my creativity in various ways, thus my obsession with analog photography), so I tried to document every month last year with a roll of film. But, life happened and due to personal reasons I am still trying to process months later, the world crumbled and so did the last quarter of the year. Following my mental state, I managed to expose 2 roles of the 35 mm film, so a bunch of photos from October to December are gone and forgotten.
But, nevertheless, here are a few of them which survived, memories from my trip to London with my sister and her husband, where we did nothing more than walk, enjoy art, and eat, and it was just the therapy I needed at the time.
I had an idea of capturing every month of this summer on film. Unfortunately, my travel plans fell through, but I didn’t want to let that change my plan of making amazing memories. I feel that sometimes we forget to romanticize everyday life in our hometowns, as we often do when on vacation. And although I often have mixed feelings about the city I was born in, I must admit that it is beautiful, especially in the summer months. So, without further ado, I present Belgrade on analog film to you!
I decided to write a post not to tell you to use this time to be productive or learn a new skill, to workout or read or DIY and redo your wardrobe, but just to try to stay sane. If I read yet another piece of advice on how to spend the time at home, I swear to God… This is not a normal time, we are, yet again, witnessing a big moment in history. And it is scary. And we do not all cope with it easily.
Some days I am paralyzed with fear and worry about the future, about my family and friends, my work as a freelancer, I worry about my brands, and how will corona virus affect the economy and world in the years to come, and some days I am happy and creative and optimistic. I read a book on my balcony and sunbath with my cat with a big glass of ice coffee. This month was an emotional rollercoaster and I just came to terms that it is normal.
How are you spending these days in quarantine? How are you feeling? What brings you joy? For me, it is a solitary walk I take on my way to the grocery store when I bring my camera with me and capture the spring on empty streets of Belgrade. Or a beautiful sunset or the most beautiful golden hour light in our apartment. Little things I do usually take for granted. Another cliche that turns out to be so true, I know. The hardest thing for me is being patient and waiting and I am still learning to let go of all the things I can’t change and just stay still until the storm passes. And then I will rebuild parts of my life if necessary. I guess the change is good, it helps you grow, although you might not be aware you need to.
I have no idea how, but it is July already?! Is it just me or is the first half of the year has flown by and I feel like the questions where are you going to spend your New Year’s Eve are just around the corner? I wanted to do a quick photo blog post of my summer in the city so far, but I’m still not doing anything vaguely interesting, just everyday life, you know, work, work, some apartment hunting in between, and then more work. I do get a short break now and then, especially when my sister and her husband came for a visit, so I did manage to drink a glass (or a two) of wine or a colorful cocktail, and to lay in the sun with a good book, but not as nearly as much as I want (or, let’s be honest, need) it.
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Anyway, I just realized that I haven’t written my New Year’s resolutions, I have them stored in my head, but with years I realized that the only way I force myself to do anything is to either write it or tell it to as many people as possible so I want back out. That is a power of character at it’s finest, my friends.
So, let’s go with my 1st of July resolutions:
Read at least two books a month. I used to read a lot, and when I say a lot, I really mean it. Reading got me through some of my lowest moments, and it keeps me sane and I know it boosts my creativity, however since I quit my job and started freelancing, I somehow read less then I used to. I guess since I work from home, I spend almost every waking hour at home working, and less time relaxing. Anything else makes me feel guilty for some reason. That brings me to number
Learn to chill, girl. Take a day or a two off, don’t answer any emails, don’t work or think about work. It sounds so stupid when I write this down, but I tend to stress a lot about work, even more now, since I don’t have a regular job, I guess I feel the pressure of being the best all the time, not struggling, both creatively and financially. I am aware that I’m not CEO of a big company, thank you, but I’m always my worst critic, and it has to stop.
Learn something new every month. I recently went to a Photography class, it was actually history of photography and it was so good for my soul, both the class itself and meeting new people with the same interests, I don’t do it so often and it felt so good, although I love my friends, don’t get me wrong, none of them is an art nerd as I am. I started learning Chinese again and I took my sister to pottery course where we drank wine and made cute plates like these here.
I’m also practicing modern calligraphy again, and I have a feeling that will be fun. Maybe I will share some of these here soon.
Write one post every week. Let’s face it, probably the only people still hanging around here are my friends and family, and I can’t say that with certainty, lol. I did start this blog to force myself to be more open and honest and to leave my comfort zone, and that is why is important to write as often as I can.
And last but not least, drink more water. Here is a reminder for both me and for you reading it, you know you’re not drinking enough.
So this is it, I hope you like this sort of a journal post, until next time, keep chasing sunsets.
The first half of 2018 was all about work for me, and from this perspective, I will probably be in the same mode indefinitely or at least for an extra few months. It is time to get serious and finish some goals I have on my mind for a way too long. So, no holiday plans for this little angel (for now). It crossed my mind that I could (and should go) on a weekend getaway, and then I remembered that I have really cute photos that I took last summer when I was in Novi Sad with a friend and never shared them here although I planned on doing that for a while.
Novi Sad is probably best known for Exit festival and it is located about an hour drive from Belgrade, and even if you are not into the festival madness, it is still a pretty beautiful place to visit, so if you are coming to Serbia this summer, maybe this post will inspire you.
We were there just for an afternoon, but I know there are many cute flats on Airbnb if you want to spend the night, that I highly recommend.
Hope you liked this short walk down the memory lane, I sincerely hope that I will have more free time soon to go somewhere fun and write about it, aka to live a little, but until then, this will have to do.