the struggle is real

the struggle is real

It’s already November and honestly, I can’t wait for 2018 to be over. I know, I seem like a broken record, always talking about the same thing, but I can’t avoid it, and I hope my rants can help to any other creative soul fighting the same battle. In this age of fast internet and even faster trends in every aspect of life, in an age of Instagram, when everywhere around you can see other people living f̶a̶k̶i̶n̶g̶ their best life, other artists being creative in ways you would want to, but you are just not getting there,  it is so easy to demotivate yourself and beat yourself down.

This whole year I felt overwhelmed like I never felt before, with everyday life, work, etc. My creativity, something that was always a big part of my identity,  seemed to be fleeting. I never had that feeling before and I must admit it scared a shit out of me. And somewhere along the way, I let go and stopped trying to find enough time for my soul to grow. It was so easy to do it, I didn’t even realize and it was already two months since I snapped any photos with my camera. You see, our new apartment has the most beautiful light early in the morning and the whole summer I wanted to do a photo shoot with it, but never got around to actually do it. I had a few ideas on my mind, but I would always find an excuse not to do it. I wasn’t lazy, I just was burned out.

Until yesterday actually. And let me tell you, getting up before 7 even if I didn’t feel like doing it and taking these product photos for my jewelry brand, playing around with the camera and later editing them, was the most fun I had in a while. The rush I get of creating, seeing my idea becoming reality, adrenaline, and serotonin pumping through my blood, almost feel like the long-forgotten magic of the first kiss. Because art, in every form, it is my first love. I think I might end up framing some of these so I don’t ever forget it again.

 

spring depression of some sort

spring depression of some sort

I don’t feel overly creative these days (again), perhaps because my brain is  (again) overwhelmed with ideas and projects that I want to realize, things I want to learn, daily work with clients (God bless them) and lack of time for myself (again)I guess that anyone who knows me, is likely to say that its not true, but I believe that every creative knows what I mean. It seems that all I do lately ends up with just another creative blockade, so I tried to break it a few days ago. 

I wanted to shoot some new jewelry for our brand, JewelryLanChe and decided to leave my comfort zone, and to try something that I don’t normally do (but my sister does, and she is really good at it) – self portraits

Let me tell you, taking photos of yourself that aren’t selfies, isn’t at all easy as it looks like. It was just before the rain and the wind was blowing so hard that my tripod fell down, along with the cameraI almost fell on the heels 3 times and twisted the ankle that I just recovered… That are the things you can’t see, but I guess that the final result isn’t that bad. It was fun for sure, and I will definitely try to do more of these in the future. What do you think?

march baby

march baby

This one will be short, maybe because I spent three days on previous post (ok, part of it was procrastinating, but don’t go into boring details, you don’t want to hear about that, we’re always keeping it together and being creative and shit). Or maybe this post will be short because time is money and you are already running late, because the new month has started, and where is the planner, Željka, where is the planner?

Well, if you don’t know, March is my birthday month, and as all Aries babies, I love my birthday, and that is why I have not one, but two different planners for you, one minimal and the other one closer to my heart, because it’s time for me to confess to myself that I will never be that Scandinavian minimalism type of girl, no mater how much I try. And also, a friend stated that you will prefer the planers starting week with Monday, so that is what you get this month. (tnx Tamara)

Feel free to tell me what would you like to download next, maybe a desktop background? Desktop background with calendar? Or phone background?

Download the planners here:

not a self-help post, I promise…

not a self-help post, I promise…

Just a self love one, I guess. What a time to be alive, huh? It seems that now, even more than ever, were struggling to find the essence in everything we do. I know I am. And even so, we spend sooooo many hours a day on things that, lets be honest, arent relevant, not really. And every goal I achieve, I immediately replace with another one. Always seeking more, wanting more, setting the bar high, planing the next step, planing the future (although I am very well aware that it can not be planned).

Let me tell you, as a freelancer, I force my self to work ten times harder than I worked on a regular 95. And I am a workaholic, although I kind a hate that word, since it seems that is IN now. All that love what you do and you will never have to work a day in your life is such a bullshit, dont fool yourselfYou will have to, even more. I always feel like I have to prove something, mostly to myself. Creativity must flow. Money as well. Sincerely, I often work from 91 A.M. And most days, I love it (and hate myself for it, because I do know that work isnt everything, and it shouldnt be).

And then, then I burn out. It happens every few months, I feel drained. My brain has too many tabs open. I feel like I can t create anything else, like anything I ever created isnt worth it. Every creative knows the struggle. And this year, Im learning how to slow down, forcing myself to take a break from work, to leave the phone, not to answer on any messages and emails, not to post on 3 Instagram accounts I manage, not to take photos, not to tweet, turn the WiFi off, and read the book or take a walk, really talk with my friends, dance, not make an Insta story. And after a few days, Im back on track, batteries charged.

For Gods sake, we live in such a time that we need the apps to remind us to breathe, meditate and be mindful, you know we fucked up somethingI know that this is such a cliche, but I really think that I need to remind myself (and anyone reading, you know you need it too) from time to time, that I wont get a second chance on this life, and that most of us wont leave significant mark on the Earth after we leave, but that doesnt mean that we shouldnt enjoy the Sun.