the struggle is real

the struggle is real

It’s already November and honestly, I can’t wait for 2018 to be over. I know, I seem like a broken record, always talking about the same thing, but I can’t avoid it, and I hope my rants can help to any other creative soul fighting the same battle. In this age of fast internet and even faster trends in every aspect of life, in an age of Instagram, when everywhere around you can see other people living f̶a̶k̶i̶n̶g̶ their best life, other artists being creative in ways you would want to, but you are just not getting there,  it is so easy to demotivate yourself and beat yourself down.

This whole year I felt overwhelmed like I never felt before, with everyday life, work, etc. My creativity, something that was always a big part of my identity,  seemed to be fleeting. I never had that feeling before and I must admit it scared a shit out of me. And somewhere along the way, I let go and stopped trying to find enough time for my soul to grow. It was so easy to do it, I didn’t even realize and it was already two months since I snapped any photos with my camera. You see, our new apartment has the most beautiful light early in the morning and the whole summer I wanted to do a photo shoot with it, but never got around to actually do it. I had a few ideas on my mind, but I would always find an excuse not to do it. I wasn’t lazy, I just was burned out.

Until yesterday actually. And let me tell you, getting up before 7 even if I didn’t feel like doing it and taking these product photos for my jewelry brand, playing around with the camera and later editing them, was the most fun I had in a while. The rush I get of creating, seeing my idea becoming reality, adrenaline, and serotonin pumping through my blood, almost feel like the long-forgotten magic of the first kiss. Because art, in every form, it is my first love. I think I might end up framing some of these so I don’t ever forget it again.

 

september in belgrade

september in belgrade

I did promise to myself that I would be more active here, but, life happened. As I have maybe mentioned earlier, it was a really busy summer (work related) and followed by a quite a few personal things, I really wasn’t in a mood to be creative just for fun, so my blog paid the price. I wanted to get into the mood and design a new to do list and a September calendar, but this month flew by, so I think there will be a few posts following week. As you can see, there is a pattern, I never was nor I will ever be good at time management, but I won’t stress about it now.

Anyway, my sister visited us in September, as you may know, she lives in the UK now, and we own a jewelry line together, JewelryLanche. And I always feel that we are the most creative when we are together because of our energies are complemented. We have different styles but because of that, some of our best designs were the ones we made together, from the beginning to the end. We didn’t work this time tho, just take time to relax, be with our family and enjoy like a tourist in our home city.

Her visit kinda pushed me back into the creative mood again. Here is the thing I recently realized, I constantly need diversity in my work in order to stay inspired, and last month I spent mostly doing graphic design, neglecting jewelry and photography, and don’t get we wrong, although I love it, if I do too much of anything, I easily become overwhelmed, since it feels like work, I guess. That is the reason that my corporate days, most of the days I felt like I was drowning, I wasn’t being challenged at all. Not exaggerating at all, those months before I quit, I was depressed, I wasn’t myself. Anyway, I digress, and that wasn’t my intention. Anyone who knows Milica and me knows that we spend a lot of time photographing, so you will usually see us running around the town in pretty dresses, with our cameras. And that was just what I needed this time.

On the other hand, I fell in love with Belgrade again, I often rant about it but I must admit that it can be quite charming. If you are planning to come to the capital of Serbia, I would say that September is maybe my favorite month to visit it. It is still hot, but not too hot that you can’t stroll around, as it can be during the summer, Sun is shining and all the beautiful cafe gardens (like the ones on Kosančićev Venac, trust me and thank me later) and all the rafts are still open. And Ada Ciganlija is still beautiful and not as crowded as it can be since everyone is back to work, so you can really enjoy a swim or a tanning session in one of its many cute beach bars.

 

Anyway, I hope you like this life update-photography post, let me know what you think about it and talk again soon!